"There is Nothing Constant in the Universe. All Ebb and Flow, And Every Shape That's Born, Bears in its Womb the Seeds of Change." Ovid.
Yesterday, I missed the self-imposed deadline for sending out my Monday Inspiration. I woke up at 4:30 a.m. to work on a client's manuscript after about 3 hours of sleep and I could barely keep my eyelids open. So at about 7:00 a.m., I decided to go back to bed. When I woke up, I still could not function properly, so I decided to skip out on the Monday Inspiration and work altogether, and just focus on playing with my daughter.

This morning, I am up again. This time at 5:00 a.m., feeling refreshed, having gotten a full night's sleep (which for me is at least 5 hours). I was going to wait until next Monday, but I was sitting here working and thinking when the thought popped into my head and, I don't want to wait to share it.

Last week Thursday, I landed a new client. She's the one whose manuscript I'm currently working on. Before her, I had just completed work for another client. This new client and I were still ironing out the terms while I was wrapping up on my previous client's work. Before the previous client, I was ironing out terms with that client and two other clients. This has all happened within the last 2-3 months. Before then, there were other email inquiries, but nothing that became a deal. And before then, there were long periods of deafening silence.  
If you operate a business, then you know what I'm talking about. These long periods of deafening silence can make you check your account balance every day hoping for a miracle of triple the number you're seeing. It can make you question all of your life's choices. It can even make you question your worth. Are you even really good at this editing thing, or are you just telling yourself that you are? Maybe a client found a small typo in their document and they've told all the writers in some secret writer's forum and now everyone is keeping their distance from you. Maybe you should go back to work and earn a steady paycheck. This is what happens when life ebbs. We panic and then we lose our confidence. And it's like none of the good times that just rolled by ever happened.

Why do we do this to ourselves? That's what I want to know. Why are we so thankful and happy and assured of our life's choices ONLY when things are going well? Why do we forget that the flow of life is never constant and that no situation is ever permanent? Why do we love the flow but hate the ebb when we know that this is how life operates? Without the ebb and flow of life, there is no growth, no progress, no change. And without progress, growth, and change, then we are just there. I know it's because the ebb of life is uncomfortable and uncertain and sometimes painful, and humans don't like any of that even though we need it in order to move ahead. I don't pretend to know all of the answers to these questions; but one thing I do know is that no matter how rocky things get, they always, always, straighten out in the end. I'm so glad to finally be experiencing a "flow" again. I know that the ebb is coming. Maybe knowing this and being aware will help keep me grounded when it does come. How do you deal with life's challenges? Please do share, I'd love to hear from you.


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